stupid feelings...

I hate waiting emails from you.

I hate that I'm checking my phone every 3 minutes to see if I have missed any ringing from you.

I hate to re-read the texts that I have sent you or received from you.

I hate that even though I'm telling you how you are important to me, you seems like you never care.

I hate you because you makes my day.

I hate that I always care about you so much.

I hate that you make an eye contact and won't tell me anything or smile.

I hate that I can't read your mind.

I hate that I don't know what you really mean when you talk.

I hate that I get happy when I receive text from you.

I hate when you say "let's go get coffee sometimes" and you never fix the date.

I hate when we finally fixed the date and you call other friends to join us.

I hate that when you talk, you seems like you mean something else but you never talk about your true feelings or thoughts.

I hate that you seems like you are playing with my feeling for you.

I hate that you might know how I feel about you.

I hate that I'm thinking about you in midnight and you are probably having a nice sleep.

I hate that we don't get any closer even after we went for cup of coffee or lunch together and had a great time together.

And, I hate that I'm a poker-face girl, who can act exactly the same as him, who's good at hiding

true feelings and behave like nothing happened before.

Fuck it.